Unconditionally

I loved you with an unconditional love

I had thought you were sent from above

to make up for the crazy life I'd had

I never thought it would feel this bad

I feel used

I feel abused

worst of all I feel an ache

that only you could make

how could you cheat like that

how could you break my heart

and make me feel like a door mat

then I think we can get thru this

Love can overcome if you love enough

but I'm starting to wonder if it can

can it deal with you on dating sites

can it deal with you still talking to her

can it deal with you talking to anyone

I don't think you're thru

you say you are

you say you've deleted it all

you say you never said you love her

but then all I do is wonder

is it true

you've lied before

you haven't done anything to get my trust back

you still talk to her

you didn't delete anything

you still hide things

how is it possible to love unconditionally

when everything is closed off

when everything is not out in the open

if something is unconditional

everything should be open

not guarded

not hid

I love you with an unconditional love

yet yours is conditional

you only share part of yourself with me

you only love certain parts of me

you use your love against me

will you open up

will you ever be honest

will you ever tell me the truth

will you ever love me unconditionally

I hope someday you will

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